You may have noticed things have been a bit quieter around here lately. The days of 2024 are running out, and I’ve been feeling the need to hit pause on this platform. You could call it my winter break.
As a chronic overthinker, I navigate a constant paradox on social media. I want to be here because I see other people creating, and I want to join the party. And yet, when I actually write on Substack, I feel like I’m standing alone in the corner, drinking watered-down punch and silently critiquing the playlist. It’s not a cute look or a cute feeling, so I need to step aside for now.
(If I dig down deep, I think it comes down to wanting to be seen, and spending hours on articles that never get seen feels painful. Sometimes, it’s enough just to see myself in these weekly Substack posts, but many times — I’ll be honest — it just isn’t.)
Hopefully, this is an age thing! Hopefully, one day I’ll give less of a f-u-c-k what other people think of me! Hopefully I can take this winter break to unpack everything I’ve just said!
Hopefully?! One day?!
I’m working on it. Anyway, what I’m trying to say is this particular version of Life Lives isn’t ~aligning~ with what I need in my life right now. I’ll be back with a new vision in January(ish). But for now, I’m going to put all my metaphorical books in my backpack and head off for winter break.
What this means for you, dear subscriber
Paid subscribers: Today, I will be pausing your subscription, meaning you won’t receive that monthly charge you usually get from me until I return. And (of course!) you can cancel your sub in your Substack account settings anytime.
Free subscribers: Nothing changes for you!
If you have any input on what type of writing/content you’d like to see on my li’l Substack, please drop a comment below. And thank you, seriously, for reading this. It means the whole world to me. Happy Holidays!
Love your writing Kells, and will follow your words to whatever medium you take them. In the meantime, good for you for taking time to step back and reassess. I admire how open you’ve always been about your relationship to social media (which, as much as I excuse it, Substack is too). I regularly fantasize about getting a job at our local post office and fucking off on any and all creative pursuits that require the attention of others to grow. It’s a murky space to live in. Thanks for being honest about it. 💛
I love you and your writing, Kells. I’m sending you my best wishes for your time off!